Down Time

this will never end

cause i want more

more, give me more, give me more

this will never end

cause i want more

more, give me more, give me more

if i had a heart i could love you

if i had a voice i would sing

after the night when i wake up

i'll see what tomorrow brings

if i had a voice i would sing

dangling feet from window frame

will i ever ever reach the floor?

more, give me more, give me more

crushed and filled with all i found underneath and inside

just to come around

more, give me more, give me more

if i had a voice i would sing

"SMD"

Night Time, Day Time!

if you did not laugh or at least smile at some of these...

"WORST"

Some girl in the twinkling of an eye
Dem ah ready fi come pull down mi Karl Kani
Oh, come on now tell me how can I
Love ah, one dat really don't deserve me?

Natural fi keep and natural preserve me
Me is ah boy, could get a whole heep ah girl, ya heard me
Many are called but only few deemed worthy
Body have ta physically strong and sturdy

Spiritually balanced fi clean and purge me
Mentally advanced fi always urge me
Read couple books and challenge the clergy
Read a couple psalms up inna the morning early

Could you be so kind then show me a sign
I've been searching and it's so hard to find
Decent values with a decent wine
Decent jubee running it down the line

Maybe it's my mind, maybe I'm blind
Maybe it's the way that I've been spending my time
I'm still searching for a fine peace of mind
Decent jubee running it down the line

A little child has grown and he's got love on his mind
But what he'll never know a virtuous woman is hard to find
And dat's when she said she feels the pain
And she'll never fall in love again

So if you is a gal with whole heep of value
What a valuable nice and decent gal you
When I get you I'll be glad I got you
Then stand firmly inna your life like statue

Seen some old tings seen some young tings
Seen some little silly go and come tings
Seen some one night just for fun tings
What a indecent piece ah, some ting

Be so kind den show me a sign
I've been searching and it's so hard to find
Decent values with a decent wine
Decent jubee running it down the line

Maybe it's my mind, maybe I'm blind
Maybe it's the way that I've been spending my time
I'm still searching for a fine peace of mind
Decent jubee running it down the line

Some say that love is blind
But he keep saying, not this time
So all he need is love to keep his heart in line
But dat's when she said, "Lord I feel the pain"
And she'll never fall in love again

You have some gal ah, come 'pon man premises
And ah, fling up the ting that's between di knees
And ah, full up man head with false promises
Oh, dutty bungle please, couldn't want to run that
So fast wid ease been there dun that my main
Squeeze is natural, simply natural

Could you be so kind then show me a sign
I've been searching and it's so hard to find
Decent values with a decent wine
Decent jubee running it down the line

Maybe it's my mind, maybe I'm blind
Maybe it's the way that I've been spending my time
I'm still searching for a fine peace of mind
Decent jubee running it down the line

A little child has grown and he's got love on his mind
But what he'll never know a virtuous woman is hard to find
'Cause that's when she said she's feeling pain
It seems they have fallen in love again
That's when she said, "Lord I feel the pain"
And now they're standing in love again

So tell me ah, when price tag gone pon annany
Gal ah, love man for Benz and Ferrari
Little one eyed brethren weh name Omari
Couldn't get no loving since him start sell stary

Some girl in the twinkling of an eye
Dem ah ready fi come pull down mi Karl Kani
Oh, come on now tell me how can I
Love ah, one dat really don't deserve me?

Passenger of Life

新年快乐

An Nou Fericit

שנה טובה

नया साल मुबारक हो

明けましておめでとうございます

Gott Nytt År

Ευτυχισμένο το Νέο Έτος

새해 복 많이

Glückliches neues Jahr

Szczęśliwego Nowego Roku

С Новым годом

Musika

discovering new songs every day!
this one might be a bit too slow or cheese for some.
i felt it when i heard it first.

yy

keke

Zen

Family Time @ Christmas

yes, my Family consists of rabbits

Monday = Big Bear Time

Winter brings on many changes in animals lives, whether it be migration by animals such as the whales, seals, turtles, eels, crabs, fish, butterflies etc.

However, for some animals hibernation is the preferred method of escaping the cold of winter.

For example, the small ground squirrel illustrates some of the remarkable changes that take place. It’s body temperature drops to within a few degrees of the cold outside its den. The heart will beat only once or twice a minute. When it is active, the squirrel may breathe a few hundred times each minute, but in hibernation it takes a slow breath only once every five minutes. Despite these changes, its blood remains saturated with oxygen, and little used muscles remain in tone ready for action when they awaken. Bears however, are not true hibernators. The body temperature of bears stays normal. They burn an estimated 4,000 food calories a day. While in hibernation they can awake and move about quite often. Yet they can exist for three months or more without food or water.

During their hibernation, the bears neither defecate or urinate. This would normally mean that nitrogenous wastes during that time would cause poisoning to the urinal system. However this it does not do. The bear solves its nitrogenous waste problem by a form of recycling." The hibernating bears body diverts nitrogen from pathways that synthesise urea into pathways that generate amino acids and new proteins. And it does this by glycerol (produced when fats are metabolized) and recycled nitrogen as the building blocks" according to the New Scientist Magazine of February 1985.

The female grizzly bear will have her cubs during the winter hibernation. During hibernation she does not eat or drink anything at all, yet still she is able to nurse and care for her cubs. The mating period usually occurs in may to early July each year, and the cubs are born generally around January or February, right during the cold winter months. But the gestation period is not very long for the female. She has very tiny offspring usually weighing only a pound or two at birth, so it is easier for her to nurse and feed them even though she does not eat or drink anything during those months.

Compared with winter hibernation of animals such as woodchucks, squirrels, snakes, frogs, and so forth, the winter sleep of many bears is only a series of naps. This is because the slumber of bears in the winter may be disturbed, as their body temperature stays high and their breathing remains at the normal rate. Some will even awake on their own accord in the winter and prowl around for a few hours or days at a time.

Scientists in Yellowstone Park discovered that grizzly bears were likely to choose dens where they would not likely be disturbed. Some of the dens were right on canyon walls where it would be very difficult for access by anyone or anything. All of the dens that were on slopes faced north, so that warm spells would not warm up the den and awake the sleeping bear. The dens were cozily lined with a fine insulation of pine and fir boughs.

It has also recently been discovered that grizzly bears would not enter their dens for hibernation until the onset of a blizzard, the type of blizzard that would quickly cover their tracks as they entered into their dens. This would serve as a fine protection for them during their hibernation, as no one would know that there was a sleeping bear deep inside of that den.

It would not be very practical for bears to refuse to play their roles in preparation for their hibernation necessary for their survival of the harshness of winter. In fact for them to ignore this would literally mean death for them. However, bears are not of such intelligence to appreciate the signs of approaching winter, but they act on an inbuilt instinct that moves them in such a way for their self-preservation.

Where man can read the signs of the weather, and can note on a calendar to see when winter is approaching, the bear does not have the same kind of intelligence.

However, for them to hibernate means their survival. These cold changes in the winter months can be taken for granted by man. Yet, for animals it is a time of great changes.

Saturday>Friday

10:00 - Young Lions @ Britannia CC for Film Festival 4 Peace

12:14 - Art Sale @ Mindan's House

16:20 - Babko Residence to check on the Grinders!

19:00 - TCC Gym

22:00 - Banana Peelers

22:40 - NBA JAM

03:24 - sleep?

RIPs aka Despicable Accents + Stories

Well time to put to rest "Dexter" as a TV Show, it was great for 2 seasons, too bad for me i watched it all the way through this 5th season, and while watching the finale i was swearing to myself that this is it! The show became too cheesy, too unrealistic, and simply pointless.

Kind of the way i did with the "Rubicon" earlier this year. After maybe the fifth episode it was giving me the blue balls. I hanged around till the seventh, but i was spitting in the air and trying to catch it, thats how boring the show was. Have to say the acting was big part of the boredom, never mind the worse plot/story ever for trying to be a mystery/conspiracy show.

Also a big RIP goes out to one of the movies that i was excited for only based on the suspenseful trailers that were released way ahead of the movies release date. What saved this movie was the music for obvious reasons that Hans Zimmer worked on it. Steve Carrel is the lead voice, or should i say some horrible Russian type of an accent. Maybe i am offended by it or maybe i just don't get it...

Official Zhukowski Rating: 6.2/10 bananas

Am i becoming a harsh critic? Have i always been this way? IS this just 'bad run' of few bad TV shows/films in a row? Hopefully!

You Are Out There

ruithael

1 month ago 48

Who would have thought that Sacha Baron Cohen could be beat in his own game, but this is beyond fucking epic. Joaquin totally fucking put his balls on the line for his art and has proven that he has more balls than anyone in show business.

Official Zhukowski Rating: 7.9/10 bananas + bonus 0.5 banana for actor being bananas and pulling this off, no matter from what side you look at it.

User Reviews

I'm Still Here - But Not All There

14 September 2010 | by renee-844-417622 (renee@reneebrack.com) (Australia) – See all my reviews

I'M STILL HERE will have people wondering - is Joaquin Phoenix all there? The twice Oscar-nominated actor (Gladiator and Walk The Line) is directed by his brother-in-law, the Oscar-nominated Casey Affleck (The Assassination Of Jesse James By The Coward Robert Ford) in a documentary about a year in his life (Australian release - September 16).

It covers the period from when he blurted out he was leaving acting for hip hop, includes the infamous interview with David Letterman and serves as a reminder of the flipside of fame.

Did we need reminding?

Well, yeah - the current human addiction to fame is out of control. Ask a lot of people what they want in life and they'll say 'to be famous' - not to do anything amazing which results in a modicum of fame - it's fame in itself and for itself.

And such empty fame is a very destructive force. The Wright Brothers found fame by getting people to fly. That's good. Linsday Lohan found fame by crash landing her life. That's bad. She ignored the gift of her acting talent by getting distracted with the shiny wrapping paper of attention. (It's a very different thing to recognition.)

The beer-gutted, bearded, babbling boy that is Joaquin Phoenix is a revelation in the doco. The audience I was with laughed out loud all the way through it. And sure, it's funny - in a tragic way - like when a cat falls into a bathtub.

The thing is - I really understood a lot of what Phoenix was saying.

What bugs him bugs most people - to be misunderstood. He feels trapped by being defined as an actor the same way a dentist would if he or she yearned to be free to become a professional golfer but was told not to. I understood how maddening it was for Phoenix to be twice-nominated for Oscars which resulted in him gathering heaps of people around him that want him to pursue acting because 'he'd be crazy not to'. Agents, managers and friends felt he was at the pinnacle of success when really, he was at the precipice of a kind of prison.

I don't reckon he seriously wanted to be a hip hop artist - but he did want the freedom to do whatever he wanted to do professionally - whatever that may be. Unfortunately, stream of consciousness got the better of him and he shot his mouth off before he thought about what he was going to say.

He's become a peculiar kind of reality show Macbeth. A Howard Hughes of Hollywood - minus the mega cash.

The doco highlights the myth about acting and stardom. An actor is not 'brilliant' or a 'genius'. Pretending to be someone else convincingly is simply being a terrific phoney, an adept fraud and a well-crafted con artist - in a legal environment. It doesn't cure cancer or change the lives of people needing help from, say, Amnesty International. Acting is just a process of not being yourself.

What Joaquin Phoenix proves is this: there is freedom in being crazy and you don't have to be crazy to know that.

He looks less Boho and more hobo. The hair on the back of his head is coming alive like Medusa, holding its own performance and provides a metaphor for what's going on inside his head.

So how good is he at hip hop? He's 2 maybe 3 out of 5. Rhyming 'Wuckeen' with 'spleen' won't win awards or become a tattooed slogan on a fan's arm.

And there's something so very broken about the badly taped up arm of his Buddy Holly-styled permanent sunglasses.

It's a shame when people who are good at one thing yearn to be good at another when they don't have the skills and tools to pull it off. It also makes me a bit mad that they are so ungrateful for the one gift they do have. Then again - is a gift really seen as a gift if you don't want it?

Poor assistant Anton is abused in such a way, it's easy to see that Phoenix uses him to bash himself up. And Anton is a willing subservient whipping boy. He uses him like a tea towel to wipe his dirty feelings.

It's almost as if Joaquin has heard people say that awful thing - that the wrong brother died outside the Viper Room all those years ago. Maybe it makes him mad and hurt, hence the title. 'River isn't, but I'M STILL HERE.

So - is I'M STILL HERE a hoax? Phoenix's stab at immortality through immorality on a public stage? Starlets use weight gain and loss, so the guys stick a question mark over their sanity? Is this the greatest role Joaquin has ever played?

Could be. After all - there are a few parallels between this doco and DIG! - the doco about The Dandy Warhols and the Brian Jonestown Massacre. And both star a 'character' called Anton.

If it's not a hoax, Joaquin is a guy on the edge. Is he a suicide candidate? Possibly. Does he need help? Definitely.

But if it is a hoax, then we're the ones who need help. And we should have the guts to admit it.

We've been conned.

But we've been conned over and over again by the high level spin doctoring that typifies 21st century marketing and promotion. And while we're all sniggering at his decrepit body and vagrant appearance, he's really holding up a mirror to everyone sitting in the cinema.

We're the ones who are ugly and crazy. And while we're at it, we can add cruel and unkind to that description too.

I feel sorry for him and sad for us.

Rare Times in Charlestown

On very rare occasions to i trash a movie after seeing it.

I try to never see movies that i feel will be below the "6/10" scale.

But this particular movie did exactly that. It was hyped by a lot of people. And i was looking forward to watching this 'gem'. Yet after seeing it i want my hundred and twenty minutes of life back!

The action itself was good, i guess. The plot and story as cheesy and unbelievable as ________ . Have to admit they did pull of a great cast, but so did the people that made The Expendables.

Maybe it is simply not my cup of a tea movie.

Maybe its too hollywoodish for my taste.

Maybe Ben Affleck did it just to bury his sins with some girl he knows in real life.

Maybe i am being too honest and harsh.

Not Sure. Yes. Yes. Maybe. No.

Official Zhukowski Rating: 5.9/10 bananas

Do NOT read anything below (as usual) if you are planning on still seeing this movie

100 things I learned from watching 'The Town' 1. A smart cop will look the other way when he sees a van load of nuns with machine guns. 2.I'm not the only one in Boston with a gun. 3.Bringing the electric chair back to Charlestown may not be such a bad idea. 4. Whenever you can't link one scene with another, an aerial view of Boston is a good idea. 5. If you run to Florida after robbing Fenway Park, the FBI will stop looking for you. 6. A girl will get upset if, after a couple dates, she finds out you robbed her bank a few days ago 7. You can't easily hide a tangerine under a large pile of money 8. Municipal officials don't ask questions when given large sums of cash to renovate a skating rink 9. Chicks will put up with anything and still love a guy even after robbing her bank and kidnapping her. 11. Never work in a bank in Boston after 300 banks are robbed each year. 12. When driving an ambulance, it's always a good idea to wear a seat belt. 13. Even though you are the subject of a man-hunt and the neighborhood is crawling with police, it is possible to leave a note on the head FBI's car without being noticed. 21. Wow, Boston really does have no black people 22. Everyone in Boston still has a 1950's Boston accent. 23. You can live 20+ years of your life, in a small secluded town, where everyone knows everyone, and never find out that your mother didn't "run away". 24. Machine gun fights are common in Boston. 25. When an angry Ben Affleck tries to whisper in your ear, don't lean forward. 26. Diet coke tastes really good when you are in a police shootout. 27. Jon Hamm`s got a great head of hair and the same haircut he had in Mad Men 35 years ago 29. Physically, Ben Affleck is like fine wine... 31. Always wear sunglasses when you're about to steal a bunch of money from Fenway. 32. The best way to get a tramp to leave your room is to put her kid in the hallway. 33. Boston's tough guy crime bosses arrange roses to look tough and get someone to accept a job 59. In case FBI is trying to set a trap for a man in an apartment, at least 3,4 FBI agents must stand near the window so that the man can see them clearly from the front building!

Honesty is the Policy

Artists make the best art when they are good at what they doing.

The media which they have worked in.

When they have an open mind.

And mostly when they are bluntly honest about their feelings.

Without any care about what the "world" thinks of it.

And I always find, yeah, I always find somethin’ wrong

You been puttin’ up wit’ my shit just way too long

I’m so gifted at findin’ what I don’t like the most

So I think it’s time for us to have a toast

Let’s have a toast for the douchebags!

Let’s have a toast for the assholes!

Let’s have a toast for the scumbags

Every one of them that I know

Let’s have a toast for the jerkoffs

That’ll never take work off

Baby, I got a plan

Run away fast as you can

She find pictures in my email

I sent this bitch a picture of my dick

I don’t know what it is with females

But I’m not too good at that shit

See, I could have me a good girl

And still be addicted to them hoodrats

And I just blame everything on you

At least you know that’s what I’m good at

And I always find

Yeah, I always find

Yeah, I always find somethin’ wrong

You been puttin’ up wit’ my shit just way too long

I’m so gifted at findin’ what I don’t like the most

So I think it’s time for us to have a toast

Let’s have a toast for the douchebags!

Let’s have a toast for the assholes!

Let’s have a toast for the scumbags

Every one of them that I know

Let’s have a toast to the jerkoffs

That’ll never take work off

Baby, I got a plan

Run away fast as you can

Run away from me, baby

Run away

Run away from me, baby

Run away

Never thought it would get crazy

Just run away

Baby, I got a plan

Run away as fast as you can

Run away from me, baby

Run away

Run away from me, baby

Never thought it would get crazy

Why can’t she just run away?

Baby, I got a plan

Run away as fast as you can

(Pusha T)

24/7, 365, pussy stays on my mind

I-I-I-I did it, all right, all right, I admit it

Now pick your next move, you could leave or live wit’ it

Ichabod Crane with that motherfuckin’ top off

Split and go where? Back to wearin’ knockoffs, ha?

Knock it off, Neiman’s, shop it off

Let’s talk over mai tais, waitress, top it off

Hoes like vultures, they wanna fly in your Freddy loafers

You can’t blame ‘em, they ain’t never seen Versace sofas

Every bag, every blouse, every bracelet

Comes wit’ a price tag, baby, face it

You should leave if you can’t accept the basics

Plenty hoes in the baller-nigga matrix

Invisibly set, the Rolex is faceless

I’m just young, rich, and tasteless

P!

(Kanye)

Never was much of a romantic

I could never take the intimacy

And I know it did damage

‘Cause the look in your eyes is killin’ me

I’m guessin’ you’re at an advantage

‘Cause you could blame me for everything

And I don’t know how I’ma manage

If one day you just up and leave

And I always find

Yeah, I always find somethin’ wrong

You been puttin’ up with my shit just way too long

I’m so gifted at findin’ what I don’t like the most

So I think it’s time for us to have a toast

Let’s have a toast for the douchebags!

Let’s have a toast for the assholes!

Let’s have a toast for the scumbags

Every one of them that I know

Let’s have a toast to the jerkoffs

That’ll never take work off

Baby, I got a plan

Run away fast as you can

Let The Right One In [2008, Sweden]

It is such a pleasure to watch a movie without seeing the trailer or knowing much of anything really but the fact that is is a well made film. This is exactly what happened here. Heard many good things about this one. Knew that i would have to focus while watching it (as should be with any film in general).

The setting adds such lovely appeal to the movie. 1982. Snow. Sweden. Middle class. Small working town.

The main beauty of the film is in the acting of the two leading characters. Their interactions, without much words.

Official Zhukowski Rating: 8.3/10

Re: Did she manipulate Oskar or was it legit?

by deranged-jackal (Mon Aug 2 2010 22:45:26) So the reason you believe your ending is better, even though it could be just as much of a stretch as the others, is because the other endings would be pointless. What I am saying is that they are not pointless. I think alot of people see this movie through the eyes of Eli while others see the movie through the eyes of Oskar. If you see this movie through the eyes of Oskar then you see a person who could go down the wrong way in life but then suddenly someone comes along who seems to completely understands him, doesnt judge him and cares very much for the "true" him. Why? Because this person is very wise. This person knows what lifes about and goes right to the heart of the matter. Why? Because this person is twice as old as the oldest person on earth and has alot more experience in seeing the patterns in life and this person finds out what is true and what is false on a much higher level than us mortals. This person must also kill humans. So you have a person who is smart and must kill. This person sees a lonely boy stabbing a tree saying "die, die". Yes its also true that this person is very lonely, just as lonely as this person is wise and experienced. It is also true that this person is stuck as a young child which compounds the feeling of being lonely and lost. But we cant read this persons mind and differ what is the lost and lonely part and what is the killing/surviving part.So we see all these things that could go either way. So back to the original question, what is the point of Eli being manipulative. The point is that this beautiful thing that happened between them has the possibility of going to complete sht. Its up to you to decide but the possibility makes it like your wondering if the person you deeply love, loves you back but even more worrisome because you could be enslaved by that love and kill innocent people for it. Its the extreme dichotemy of heaven or hell. Another take is that Eli is not manipulative at all but she still could have met Hakan at a young age and they both could have loved each other like she and Oskar love each other. Elis mind though has stayed the same and because she is stuck as a child forgot that she loved Hakan and began to love him as a father. When she meets Oskar, Hakan realizes that he has been replaced. Its not Elis fault though.

29/5/27

How am i this scared of life? Not living the way i preach as in the right way of doing so. Yet not being able because of some mental, behavioral or basic human emotions?

Maybe it all is as 'black and white' as black and white really is...

Not able to view life for what it is on its most basic and of course it would have to be most important level...

Destiny

Watching 'Beautiful Losers' right now. How do most events in my recent life seem to be blimps of fate? Whether it has to do with music, love, films, friendships, and art. At this specific moment i am watching this film that i downloaded close to a year ago, based on a recommendation by Chris Killoran (a guy from my high school basketball team) that i saw on Facebook. I have been saving time to see this for a while now, and it feels so fitting to watch it just few days after discovering Vancouver Art Crawl (thanks to Sylvia and Iulia)!

Official Zhuk Rating: 8.1/10 bananas

I might not be able to wait until summer to start painting. Really want to read up more on everything and have my brain just explode eventually. It would never have to be anything amazing or pretty. It will just be me - what i am made of and what did make me.

Thus Spoke Zhukowski

i love art so much!

something has been missing up till now!

"creative/artistic output" - thanks, Iulia.

love something = throw yourself into it. crashing head on!

can't keep thoughts away from it.

zero action at work still...

need space? cooperative weather? tools?

why such strong emotions to something never done before?

(never using the word "I", because "i" am nothing really.

just a product of my surrounding. and there have been many.)

how important the people around and their influence?

oh so so much.

want to absorb /swallow the whole world into my head.

accepting of the negativity of the world of course.

but it would be negated (odd thing to state - negativity would be

negated),

by the knowledge and understanding.

would it?

or too much dreaming?

how hard does one dream/meditate till it becomes reality?

oh how powerful can one person be!

there is this line: "i can be anything on the internet"

well,

we are all forgetting that we can be anything/anyone in our everyday life!

everyday is present as in The Present/The Gift.

how different we all are yet all the same all at the same time.

love this world and everyone in it!

only wish everyone and the world knew this.

there is nothing i want in return then all of their well being...

Random Thoughts

Blah blah blah blabiddy blah, thats how it all sounds if anyone would listen to any human conversation. What makes us different from any other animal in the world? Of course this has already been answered! But are we forgetting to 'think outside of the box'? Or has the first question been so beat to the ground by the bright minds in our history that there is no real point to it? Probably. One might only need to search long enough or get educated to know. Can we trust those answers? Or does the world and our own existence keep changing and evolving while we are stuck in the old ways and mainly with the old answers? This is more directl towards the fact that maybe we are not at the top of this 'food chain', just maybe, not anymore. Only if we think outside of the box can we start asking such questions and look for answers that might not even lead us the original question but open our minds to most of the problems of the world today. It may be not even on such a big scale but just maybe help us understand one another better. Well since of course the world is such a big place. Is it? Or is it not? In my eyes it does not matter, what matters is that it is fascinating, beautiful and wonderful! Bladiddy blah blah blah...

HKx2

"But Everything I'm Not Made Me Everything I Am" K.West

TIME + NATURE + HONESTY + PATIENCE + VIRTUE + ... = GOOD* LIFE

Jean-Michel Basquiat

Lady Vengeance

Finally had time to see 2nd movie from the Korean trilogy by Cha-wooh Park. First one being OldBoy (one of my all time favorites) that i saw some five years ago. At the time it blew my mind. Now i can see how being older i might have predicted the ending. But none-the-less that movie and this one "Lady Vengeance" are very well done artistically. A few good philosophical and moral questions arise. I am a bit too sleepy/tired to write them down at the moment.




by r-magar (Mon Jan 19 2009 14:50:55)

"I dont think she deserved the forgivness she was looking for.

Near the end of the film, the little boy she kidnapped apppears in front of her. She goes over to say something, maybe to apologise or to ask for forgivness. The boy turns into an adult, the age he would be if he were alive. He shakes his head with sadness and walks away.

I dont believe she should be forgiven because she was essentially not a nice person for the following reasons:

- She kidnapped the boy, wanting to get ransom for him. She was old enough (16) to know better, even if she was fed lies re: theory of "good and bad kidnappings"
- She confessed to a murder which she knew she was not guilty of. Instead of telling the police who he was, she decided to be wrongly imprisoned. I know her daughter was in danger, but this was selfish, though understandable. What about the feelings of the dead boys family? They would want justice, not the real killer still free. No wonder she was going to cut off her fingers for forgivness.
- Because she confessed to the crime, this enabled the real killer to kill other children. She indirectly caused this, since she had the power to stop it in the first place.
- In prison she changed completely to get released early and make friends on the outside. She was really decieving these people, killing their enemies (the big lesbian woman for example), being lovers with that girl and being overtly religious, to use them to her advantage in her plan for revenge after her release. She didnt care about these people.

She knew herself, that deep down inside she was a bad person. You can maybe equate her to the likes of Myra Hindley or a Rose West, whose partners did the more worse of the crimes.

I have sympathy for what she went through, and you were rooting for her, and her plan, to kill the bigger fish. I am perhaps being a bit harsh on her, but do you see where I am coming from?"

604

Marchioness Disaster

Summer 2006.

This next video made be a stronger believer in what i believe.

Also made me realize how technology can spread human spirit and goodness.

Ever since then Youtube has been a great part of my learning process and entertainment.

But back to this video. It was probably one of the first videos i ever saw there. I have no idea how i came upon it. I wish to know how i was able to find it. Who sent it to me? But i am very glad that it did happen.

Present day, November 2010

wardbingham

hello glad this was my first ever video i favorited on Youtube! this is what its all about i believe that life is beautiful and that we are all friends!

wardbingham

Re: hello you just made my day. i believe it does get better thank you.

i Believe as i have always believed that life is wonderful/beautiful!